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8.10.2006
My ex-husband is moving back to Mississippi by the end of the month.
I'm completely unsure about how I feel about this.
Pinky, I can imagine this stirs of strange feeling inside, though not knowing much, I can't even guess. Just know that if you want to talk, you've got friends, as well as a wonderful husband to talk to. (How do I know he's wonderful? Well, at the very least, I know he's smart! He married you, didn't he?)
Thank you, Pavel. I just hoped he had left for good, then my daughter wouldn't be on the roller coaster again. He hasn't talked to her since July 20 and before that was on the 4th. I just don't want him coming here and breaking her heart again. I would rather be physically wounded than see that hurt look on her face. You know what I'm talking about!
My husband is a very wonderful man and he loves both me and my daughter like mad. He works very hard to make her feel loved by a man that's in the dad position. And they are just now getting into their own swing of things. I don't want that to get messed up because my ex is jealous. The last time she stayed with my ex, she didn't talk to my husband for 2 days! Two days, Pavel, because of the trash my ex put into a 5 year old brain.
I didn't mean to go on so much. I'm probably going to end up doing a whole blog on this just so I can get it out of my system. Purge the anger with blogging! And if that doesn't work, I have ice cream in the freezer.
Breath, Just breath. Lessons such as these are never easy, but always worth the learning. You are not alone, and you are, all three of you; loved, deeply and feircly by this clan of humans...purge baby purge, you are old enough to know better, "so cry baby cry. Make your Mother sigh, you are old enough to know better," (Beatles) so sit on the front porch, and just swing. Relax into this lesson, the tension building, increase that tension, and just breath. Increase the pain inside, and just breath. Make it the worst thing you can think of, and just breath. Beacause you are that quiet warrior, and your sword of love is razor sharp, and this battle will never be won on any open feild, it fights dirty, and you walk the line down the middle of the road, sword in hand, bravery on your tounge, virtue in your soul. You are that quiet warrior, and I am proud of you and proud to know you. All my Love to you, Heather
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Pinky, I can imagine this stirs of strange feeling inside, though not knowing much, I can't even guess.
Just know that if you want to talk, you've got friends, as well as a wonderful husband to talk to. (How do I know he's wonderful? Well, at the very least, I know he's smart! He married you, didn't he?)
Thank you, Pavel. I just hoped he had left for good, then my daughter wouldn't be on the roller coaster again. He hasn't talked to her since July 20 and before that was on the 4th. I just don't want him coming here and breaking her heart again. I would rather be physically wounded than see that hurt look on her face. You know what I'm talking about!
My husband is a very wonderful man and he loves both me and my daughter like mad. He works very hard to make her feel loved by a man that's in the dad position. And they are just now getting into their own swing of things. I don't want that to get messed up because my ex is jealous. The last time she stayed with my ex, she didn't talk to my husband for 2 days! Two days, Pavel, because of the trash my ex put into a 5 year old brain.
I didn't mean to go on so much. I'm probably going to end up doing a whole blog on this just so I can get it out of my system. Purge the anger with blogging! And if that doesn't work, I have ice cream in the freezer.
Breath, Just breath.
Lessons such as these are never easy, but always worth the learning.
You are not alone,
and you are, all three of you; loved, deeply and feircly by this clan of humans...purge baby purge, you are old enough to know better, "so cry baby cry. Make your Mother sigh, you are old enough to know better," (Beatles) so sit on the front porch, and just swing.
Relax into this lesson, the tension building, increase that tension, and just breath. Increase the pain inside, and just breath. Make it the worst thing you can think of, and just breath. Beacause you are that quiet warrior, and your sword of love is razor sharp, and this battle will never be won on any open feild, it fights dirty, and you walk the line down the middle of the road,
sword in hand, bravery on your tounge, virtue in your soul.
You are that quiet warrior, and I am proud of you and proud to know you.
All my Love to you,
Heather
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